Showing posts with label poetry. Show all posts
Showing posts with label poetry. Show all posts

11/16/17

Golden Yellow Blues

From time to time when the sky is gloomy I gather various textiles that are not happy whites anymore and I turn them into golden days.
I'm told being useful to others, sharing your knowledge is the way to go. Keith Pavia fellow artist reminded me that talents are given to be shared not buried away.
It is still trying for me because I grew up under communism and much was taken from us in the name of altruism.
Yet for many years I went that route only to get burned out.
So: dissatisfying whites get soaked for an hour or so.


I put to boil 4.5 gallons of water  and 13 tablespoons of turmeric and 9 tablespoons of alum. If curious Google as to why.


I pushed the clothes thoroughly under the concoction and made sure it stayed oppressed.


After an hour get them out without burning yourself. 


Rinse. The turmeric powder might create a Milkyway of sorts on the bathtub floor. Get metaphysical.


Take pictures with your phone and not spify camera while rinsing until the water is not yellow anymore.


Put  a second load into the brewing cauldron.  If you get annoyed by the waiting like I do since I equate waiting with terrorising controlling tactics, as experienced under said communism, double task. Repot your plants. Here goes Pandele, my digging assistant:



After rinsing put them in the dryer and get all metaphysical again.


Then fold the fluffy clothes and uuu and aaa about how soft and sunflower fields and daffodils and autumn ginko tree leaves they are. And how you'll never get to be depressed by blahy whites again. It's not your fault the washing cycle is just half an hour here in America and you can't get them be the required white. 
And that how disgustingly patriarchal it is that brides must wear virginal white. And you can't remember the biblical title of a movie in which Betty Davis stubbornly showed up in a red dress she bought of a sexual worker and Jane Fonda's father dumped her. Jezebel the film. 
At my wedding my head looked like a buffalo partition in the middle  teased in two mounds stiff with hair spray. Made my own white dress. God, every year I find more stuff in my younger past to be embarrassed about.
Here are the invigorating results:




Even rust splotches look artsy now:


This flower is my phone screen now to remind me that when in doubt use yellow.



After trimming off the stray strings I made a tassel:


and left the rest to Pandele to play


while I took a hot bath using the brewing. Turmeric and alum is great for you. Google, Google. If you douse your nether parts you can be a virgin all over again. Yep.

New York City 
November 11, 2017


8/21/17

Eclipse Rosamunda

I get to see an eclipse every time I open the fridge and my Rosamunda watches me through the hinged door crack.


 

8/1/17

Birthday Good Times

Birthday. Good wishes. Balloons. Happy birthday to you singing. Retrospective. Assessing.

I wanted to have a memorable birthday. The only one I remember is one in Budapest. 1997. After a performance an American couple waited backstage to talk about my play and I ended up walking with them up in the Old City. The lady was overweight and Hungarian people were calling her names, astounded.
They invited me to their place and we ate together. When it came out it was my birthday, they stuck two burning incense sticks in the red flesh of a watermelon and I was happy.

2017. My son gave me an entire Sunday.
So I set about experiencing the beauty and richness of New York City together.
We headed to the Metropolitan Museum.
When we got off the bus I noticed a sign on a table Free Poetry. A mother with her child got up so I sat at the table in front of the unsmiling poet. He wanted me to talk about myself and after I did that he typed this poem:

my son may oppress
the haters of the city
he can wear
what expouses his tats
my son may enter
and leave everyone jealous
so long as he knows
the ancestors
that brought us
for our dreams
to realize btwn limestones...
i arrived
for the reason to explore
to fall on beds
to wake up
and try this game again
i have played
with the park
lost spirits
thru the baritone
of my phone
hailed taxis
to get from here
to a brave new curb
and every year i celebrate
this courage
to continue at stride
from harlem to the harbor
and fortunately i have
the loves of my life
to steer my hopes
to a later time
where i may blow
and wish for many more yrs of smiles

On the steps of the museum life was beehiving. The security worker asked me to either drink my bottle of home-made limeade or throw it to the garbage because only bottles of clear water were allowed in the museum. So I drank it in one long swig. As if I was in a contest, Nathan's Hotdog, stretching my body's ability to ingurgitate.

We saw two exhibitions.
Irving Penn retrospective. He had cycles of photos. Famous people. Working class. Headless nudes like landscapes. Cigarette buts. Exotic people. Kitchen still life.
Here goes a picture of the picture of a lady with a hat covered in stuffed roosters. My sister loves her chicken and especially the red rooster, who unfortunately my late father's dog Pufi pulled out his beautiful tail feathers. My sister rescued the rooster from the dog's mouth.

The second exhibition was about de/reconstructive couture. One ensemble seemed to be built in the shape of the Guggenheim Museum.

Others reminded me of a dress I made out of a pair of jeans, the waistband turning into the head opening. I was a teenager. Mom passed by me on the street without recognizing me. 

We headed to Astoria Ditmars Blvd.On the N train a boa constrictor and a python residing in a blue bag asked for donations in return for letting us touch them or drape them around our necks.
They had a large family at home. The grandparents were 18 feet long. Ate a chicken a month. The mother was full of infants.

A lady entangled in them said laughing alarmed to get the snakes off her. She had no donation to give, unless they wanted her $20,000 graduate student loan debt.

When we got off my son said as if we arrived in Europe. That was the plan. Eat Romanian food. We couldn't locate a Romanian restaurant, so we settled for a Greek tavern. Delicious meal. I asked the waitress if patrons still smashed plates at parties. She laughed and said only when they had bazookas. Live music I assumed.
Then we crossed the street and entered the QED edifice. I wanted to hear myself tell a story that nagged me to strangers.
The emcee took pieces of paper with names scribbled on that were dropped in her bucket half an hour before the event. My son did that for me while I waited at the tavern for our order.


All the nations of the world got on stage. Egyptian, West Indian, Chinese, Irish, Israeli. They were interesting. Some bemoaned their sex lives, or the harshness of going thru a divorce, others made fart jokes. It was all good as long as my son was laughing non-stop.
My turn came and I got off my chest an eulogy for my late father's dog Pufi, which I hope to write about tomorrow.

We went then shopping at the Parrot. They carry my mother's foods. Zacusca, feta cheese, baklava, Hungarian salami, sausages, Turkish delight, that is rahat, sunflower seeds oil, halva, Borsec, Romanian mineral water, stuffed cabbage rolls, etc.

Back on the subway. A girl was playing a violin concerto. On the train again the nations of the world sat down patiently together.

In our neighborhood we escaped a hollering beggar we passed by at the corner liquor store. When we didn't give him money he hissed after us that that's why nobody liked us. What does he mean?! His face was tumefied/swollen with alcohol. As we walked away to the end of the block his voice worked itself into a state, screaming that baseball bats would descend on us. Thank you so very much. I advised my son who was marveling how could the beggar hope for alms when he was standing in front of the liquor store, I suggested we should let mean words enter through one ear and get out of the other, without nesting in your brain. In and out. Empty air.
Don't engage in misery.

I forgot to take a picture of a sidewalk green space enclosure in Astoria. Instead of flowers they planted cacti with long thorns.

Rosamunda sniffed eagerly at the shopping bags when we reached home safely.